poeticdesires

the life and musings of a kinky slut

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Self Analysis —

I think my biggest problem about my weight in my mindset. I ate my way into this problem. I keep thinking I can just eat my way out of it. But it doesn’t work that way. That I know logically. But getting myself to consistently wake up in the morning to work out or going […]

Disgusted —

To be perfectly honest, it’s hard for me to look in a mirror. It’s hard for me to see what I’ve done to myself. I find my physical appearance disgusting. No one should feel this way about themselves. One would think this would galvanize me into action, when, in fact, it’s done the opposite. Instead […]

Uncomfortable —

My father recently had his 79th birthday. I called him, cause I’m a good daughter, and, of all the things for him to mention, he asked how my weight loss was going. I told him I was trying, but as of late I had not been to the gym. He encouraged me to do better. […]

Slacker —

Okay, I admit it: I didn’t go to the gym AT ALL last week. I was lazy and snoozed through each time I was suppose to wake my SO and myself up in the morning. After work, I found excuses to avoid the YMCA. Bad panda. Because of my snooze addiction, it is now my […]

Rejection —

I got a big fat letter in the mail today from my current healthcare provider. I am in the process of starting a new position and wanted to keep the insurance I have. So, I applied to my current provider, just as an individual instead of under a group plan. I told them everything I […]

Overweight —

I am 5’6″. The last time I stepped on a scale, it read 240lbs. Granted, it was the middle of the day, but you get the point. I’m fat. In fact, I am the heaviest I have ever been. (no use in sugarcoating the situation) I knew I had a problem one day when I […]