the life and musings of a kinky slut
“Because you don’t require a commitment for you to be in their lives, they never had to make a decision with you. In your effort to avoid the pain of rejection you have this other painful feeling [of never having tried].”Twice, less than a month apart actually, I learned two people I care for started relationships with someone […]
Our brains are funny things. In our attempts to avoid pain, we can in fact cause more anguish. In my last session with Doc, we ended up talking about my father, a lot. I have mixed emotions surrounding my Dad. I love him, but some of his choices for my life were not the best. […]
“Feelings are not facts.” – Doc, on my need to put others first because if I don’t I feel like a bad person. He subsequently pointed out that often the ways we use to avoid pain in fact cause us more pain; my putting others first only reinforces my belief that I am worth less […]
I leave in about an hour for my first session with my new therapist, who I will henceforth call Doc. I am nervous. The last time I tried therapy it was… not a resounding success. I will say that she got me thinking. She tried to get me to be more forthcoming with my emotions […]