the life and musings of a kinky slut
[Trigger Warning: This entry features a description of childhood sexual abuse.] I love my niece. She’s about to turn four this summer. She’s a ball of energy: running, jumping, crashing into walls while cackling. Today, before she, her parents and I headed out, I assisted her in putting on her socks and shoes. I grabbed […]
“I just wanted to say thank you for creating the bamboo rig and encouraging people to play on it. That was the first time I’d self suspended at an event in a year. I’d had an incident before which left me skittish. That tie felt like a breakthrough for me. So, thank you.” – Monday […]
Attention and affection; two simple concepts, yet it has taken me time and thoughtful introspection to realize they are the two major necessities I need in a relationship. I want a partner who will spend time with me. Not around me, but with me. I need simple attention: a meal where we bitch about our […]
My head throbbed. Pain pulsed from the base of my neck up into my brain, out through my eyes, around my forehead, and at my temples. It was a migraine, the first I’d had in years, and only the third in my life. “I’m feeling nauseous” turned into “You need to drive” in a matter […]
~ a story ~ “Hi.”“Hey.” It was the same as it had been between them for some time now. Short. Curt. Never outright rude, but not warm either. Like any other day. Except today wasn’t any other day. He saw it. Normally there was a moment, a split second of eye contact, and then returning […]
Mania Three people died in Boston today. One of them was a child. Eight years old. A third grader who attended the Boston Marathon, who possibly cheered on a family member, lost their life today. More than one hundred people were injured in the dual blasts. Multiple injuries included the loss of limbs. I don’t […]
Waking up and my elbow aches because, in the middle of the night, I turned over and ended up sleeping on it funny. And now that I’m awake, I can’t just drift back into a snooze-ful slumber because the pain, though not debilitating, is annoying enough to distract me. Trying to snooze for an hour, […]
I hated my job tonight. The short version is that someone else fucked up but I get the blame for the screw up. I thought I did everything right tonight. Even with the pop up issues. Even with the running back to the warehouse for more equipment, rushing to finish everything on time. I thought […]
I may never forget his birthday. I love numbers, always have, and as soon as he told me his birthday, I smiled and said, “Oh, cool; three to the third.” He smiled at the nerdy way my brain had branded the date into my memory. Now, having not seen or spoken to him in months, […]
So I was in my car, driving from a gig to my house, listening to NPR the other day. I was only a minute or two away from home when a local news segment came on. The feature: decision day for medical school students. This was the day when they all learned at what hospital […]