the life and musings of a kinky slut
“Boring and more sedate is good for you.” – DocAs he read off the characteristics, one-by-one, I wanted to laugh. There I was in black and white. Well, actually he was reading off of his e-Reader, so maybe black and beige. But still… At the start of our session today, I asked Doc to talk […]
“I don’t want you to take this the wrong way, but you really are clever. You do these really good things, but then you always find a way to put yourself down… How about you instead use your cleverness to find humor in how your brain twists the good you’ve done.” – DocThis past Tuesday […]
One of the latest long term homework assignments Doc has given me is quite simple, yet also very effective.Everyday I tell myself that I love myself.It’s often in the car when I’m alone, listening to music, speeding along to here or there. Occasionally it’s when I’m sitting around with friends. Once it was when I […]
A few things from my day.It’s Tuesday, which more often then not lately has meant I get to see Doc. As we talked about the happenings of my past week, my practice of his homework assignments, and things bugging my brain, an interesting topic came up: commitment. Well, more to the point, my lack of […]
Boys are stupid. Boys. Are. Stupid. But if I keep giving boys second and third and twenty-sixth chances, I think that makes me stupid too. It doesn’t take much to placate me. The occasional call or text. A conversation. An acknowledgement that both you and I are still alive. Really, not much. Honesty, respect, simple […]
I could feel it gradually building, waxing and waning throughout my Ropen Space day. I could hear her, just on the edge of my fun, just beyond the chorus of beautiful voices I listened to on Friday. She was patient. I finally, really, heard her when classes were over. Few others were in the room. […]
Part of my last session with Doc focused on the idea of life goals. For this week’s homework, he wanted me to make lists of my life goals/desires. He encouraged me to be detailed (“Use that writing of yours.”) when describing what I want. In some ways this task is easy. In others it is […]
Save for brushing against each other while in passing, we didn’t touch for hours. He did this on purpose. “I haven’t decided if I’m going to fuck you tonight.” It was the first time I’d seen him since right after my spring break. The first time I’d seen him since he told me he had […]
“I keep accepting these little pieces of people, and being so incredibly happy with them, which I think is incredibly shitty. It is so much like my mother, and I don’t want that. A friend recently told me I keep settling for small bites when I should be demanding the whole entree.”“Yes, but first you […]
You’d think by now I’d know how to do this. In my almost twenty-nine years on this earth, I have spent by far more of my time uncoupled and alone than with someone. And yet… During my last session with Doc, he talked about how everyone on this Earth has two basic fears. 1- Not […]