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Archive for April, 2021

Unfair Value —

~ just thinking out loud for a bit ~ I didn’t feel wanted, valued, until I started fucking. Yes, I am smart, but too much of societal training had ingrained in me that my worth must be centered around how men viewed me. Mind you, I’m pansexual, so yes this is especially fucked up. When […]

How Is Your Heart Today? —

~ a fictional thought exercise ~ How is your heart today? Burdened. How so? Please, elaborate. Okay, it’s like this. I feel too much. I remember and I feel and I confuse what was with what is and what could be. And then my mind starts spinning out numerous scenarios trying to game out what […]

Ten Days —

Friday April 9th I drove back home. I had planned to leave at stupid o’clock in the morning, but I didn’t end up leaving until 9am. The delay of four hours made it so I could mail in my application for a medical training license while in town, though, so it was worth the wait. […]

Frustration —

Do my pops of color fit into the grey scale of your life? Do you want me? Not just my body; you’ve had that many wonderous ways. Do you want me? My brain and my body and my being. Do you see me fitting together in some shape or manner with the puzzle pieces that […]